Sunday, April 27, 2008

Its Sunday... Time for a rant!!

So... This is 99% not Aybra related.... 1% Aybra related and a whole lot of rant...

I was informed by Eden that I Posted too much personal information on this blog.. Personal information about him.... You know what..?? I DO NOT CARE!!! I am entitled to post what I want.. If he has issues with it (which was his behaviour).. then perhaps he should change his behaviours... I gave Eden the blog link after that particular blog was posted.. Obviously if I was worried about him reading that blog then I would not have given him the link or I would have taken that blog down... If he is just now seeing it then that is his problem.. Not mine.. I am NOT taking that blog down...

Apparently the issue started because some person that he knows out of state has been reading the blog (Hi whoever you are... Id be interested to hear how you found the blog)... They called his family and was asking if that was him.. Umm YEP that is him.. He can deny it all he wants..But that is him and Aybra is his child... Anyway I guess he was confronted with some of the information in that post (Again his problem not mine)... And he doesnt want to look bad in front of his family... Oh I could go into much more detail but I will not.. I left a lot of the information that he sent in the email that I quoted OUT of the blog post to help "protect" him... But trust me... if I posted it his family would NOT be happy then he would have a real reason to complain... Anyway.. as I said.. That blog is staying...

(UPDATE Monday: So Eden read the blog.. Woop-Dee-Doo! Apparently Eden seems to think that I post about him to make him look like a bad guy... Wrong.. Or that I want sympathy.. Wrong again.... If I wanted him to look like a bad guy I could post a lot worse stuff... But to save him and his family I won't. Im not low like that..But his most recent request... Not to use his name when I post.. Um not using his name?? What is that supposed to do? Keep it a secret that he is the father? I will use his name when and where I want.. If he doesnt like the fact that he is the father then tough for him... If he doesnt like that I post crappy things about him then tough for him. I owe him nothing. He owes Aybra everything.. and 15 or 20 minute visits every other day is just not enough... To which he thinks "I will go to visit when I want and I dont owe anybody an explanation for the frequency or length of visits. I will be her father my own natural way with no conditions or dictations" Right... So he can chose to stay there for 15 minutes and that is his natural way of parenting... WTH are you going to teach a child with a 15 minute visit?? I surely hope he sees the wrong in this and wants to become an actual father figure to her instead of just a "visitor")




The Aybra related bit is a rant also.

Every morning as soon as I get up I call to check on Aybra... I call every 2-3 hours throughout the day and night and every time I pump and sometimes in between those times as well.. So yesterday morning I called and talked to Aybras nurse.. She asked me if I was planning on seeing her today... I simply told her yes.. Today she asked me again... and Im sure I was rude when replying but I took offense to it.. I am there EVERY SINGLE DAY to check on her... I call multiple times EVERY SINGLE DAY to check on her. Granted there are parents that do not care and do not bother to call or go visit everyday.. there are also those who CANT call or visit everyday.. I am not one of those parents.. I do whatever it takes so I can go and see my child in the hospital. So when I gave her my answer today I told her that I am there EVERY SINGLE DAY. I think she could sense the tone of my voice because she said "I thought I saw you everyday but I wasnt sure".... Now, I know she didnt mean anything by her question at all but my gosh... Look through Aybras records.. I have never missed a day and do not plan on it. There have been some days that the nurses did not chart some of calls or my visits but there is not a single day in her chart where absolutely NO call or visit from are shown. Every single day shows at least some of my calls and visits.

When Alo was in the hospital for 3+ months I only missed 7 days and my excuses are really dang good. 4 of those days I was sick and was not allowed to visit. One was car trouble and the other two weather related (If you live in Arkansas then you understand the weather issue). Alo was in a NICU an hour away yet I made the drive every single day (besides those seven). I never missed a single day when Kaia was in the NICU.

And just to make it more Aybra related...

Aybra had some desat episodes today.. They increased her feeds today.. The first three were 9ml then it was going up to 10ml... Woohoo! We are almost back to where we were before her setbacks... She is growing great, tolerating her feeds... Her vent settings are kind of back and forth... but things are looking good.

Did I post this picture before? (Sorry I take so many I cant remember what ones Ive posted or not). This was during KC on the 24th.. I was taking the picture myself so it isnt all that great but its the best one I had... I need to go transfer pics to my computer then Ill update some more pics from last night.


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3 comments:

baby duck said...

Don't let the nurse's questions get you wound up. . . they asked me this all the time, too; and I camped in the NICU every day from 9:00 til 6:00 and called several times from home at night. They still would ask if I was coming in again soon. I think it is a reflex, like asking someone "how are you?" when you see them.

Aybra is gorgeous, and looks like she is doing so well. Hang in there, mommy.

The Preemie Mile said...

Thanks.. I never really let it bother me before so I dont know why it is now but I am going to blame it on hormones. I think they probably ask everybody. It is a bigger hospital where lots of babies are fown to and I think the majority of the parents only come up to see the baby once or twice a week. Every nurse seemed really shocked when Aybra was first born and I told them I would be there every day to see her.

Fallon said...

Just call him "dad" or something. He is her father and as such, it's natural that he is going to be mentioned when you're talking about her, especially with her being in the NICU and everything happening in that direction. It's better to rant and get it all out than to say nothing about it and let it eat at you. As for the visits, they may be short, but you do have to give him a little credit... those 15 minute visits are far, far more than Aloshua ever received from his father; don't forget that. It may not be the effort you expected or even a great effort, but even minimal effort is better than no effort at all. Anyway.. that's my only 2 cents on the subject. I'm shutting up about it for good now!